Review of Not if I See You First

The Rules:

Don’t deceive me. Ever. Especially using my blindness. Especially in public.

Don’t help me unless I ask. Otherwise you're just getting in my way or bothering me.

Don’t be weird. Seriously, other than having my eyes closed all the time, I’m just like you only smarter.

Parker Grant doesn’t need 20/20 vision to see right through you. That’s why she created the Rules: Don’t treat her any differently just because she’s blind, and never take advantage. There will be no second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart.

When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after being gone for years, Parker knows there’s only one way to react—shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind already, like trying out for the track team (that’s right, her eyes don’t work but her legs still do), doling out tough-love advice to her painfully naive classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn’t cried since her dad’s death three months ago. But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened—both with Scott, and her dad—the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem. Maybe, just maybe, some Rules are meant to be broken.

Combining a fiercely engaging voice with true heart, debut author Eric Lindstrom’s Not If I See You First illuminates those blind spots that we all have in life, whether visually impaired or not.

I received Not if I See You First from lovely Lori at Writing My Own Fairy Tale. I didn't know much about it, so honestly, it sat a really long time before I finally decided to read it. I should have picked it up a lot early, because I really enjoyed it and read it quickly!

  • I am not sure if I have really read any other books with a main character that was blind. It was so interesting to get inside Parker's head and "see" from her POV. I love books that give you insight into the lives of others and help us accept each other's differences.
  • Parker's story was TOUGH. I can't imagine going through everything she has and I am not sure I would have come out the same way she did. I think I would have a lot more anger and self-pity. Parker had a some fear, self-doubt and a walls around her, but it was realistic and it really helped me relate to her character.
  • Scott, swoon over Scott. I really don't want to ruin anything, but I have to add that in.
  • The friendship base in the book is awesome. It was honest, realistic and raw. I loved how strong it was and how well-written.
  • I was really impressed with Eric Lindstrom's writing. Not if I See You First was his debut novel and he started brilliantly. I was so impressed by how well he wrong a female voice.

  • I don't honestly know exactly why but the whole relationship with Sheila really bugged me. I felt like something was missing, I wanted more of a resolution with the whole thing.
  • I also would have really liked for Parker's aunt to come around and start understanding Parker better, I think it was in the fringes, but it felt like an important part for me.

Top Ten Tuesday with 10 Of My Most Recent 5 Star Reads

I am a little tough with 5 stars, so some of these I have read quite a while ago. I have been going back through and reading some favorites, so that is also why Throne of Glass, The Grisha series and Daughter of Smoke and Bone are on the list!

Review of Anna Dressed in Blood

Cas Lowood has inherited an unusual vocation: He kills the dead.

So did his father before him, until he was gruesomely murdered by a ghost he sought to kill. Now, armed with his father's mysterious and deadly athame, Cas travels the country with his kitchen-witch mother and their spirit-sniffing cat. They follow legends and local lore, destroy the murderous dead, and keep pesky things like the future and friends at bay.

Searching for a ghost the locals call Anna Dressed in Blood, Cas expects the usual: track, hunt, kill. What he finds instead is a girl entangled in curses and rage, a ghost like he's never faced before. She still wears the dress she wore on the day of her brutal murder in 1958: once white, now stained red and dripping with blood. Since her death, Anna has killed any and every person who has dared to step into the deserted Victorian she used to call home.

Yet she spares Cas's life.

Anna Dressed in Blood has been on my list for longer than I care to admit. I loved the cover, it just never seemed to be on my radar at the right time. I finally decided to pick it up and was pleasantly surprised.

  • The story was new, fresh and I could not compare it to anything I have read before.
  • I enjoyed the characters. I think I loved Cas’s mother and cat the most J Everyone was so eccentric, and I always can relate better to “weird” characters.
  • The rag-tag little team from high school was fun. I loved that no one fit their stereotypical roles perfectly, it was a good way to show that not everyone can easily be put into a box.
  • Anna was totally interesting. I haven’t fully decided if I want to continue with the series, but I would like to learn more about her.
  • I did not need the romance in this book. I could totally understand a sympathy or longing, but actual kissing made no sense to me.
  • I struggled just a bit at the beginning to get into the book, it started so much into the action (which is normally good) that I felt confused, which I don’t love.
  • Like I said above, I am not sure if I want to continue the series. I really have no good reason as to not, it just didn’t pull at me so much that I wanted to put it before other books I am interested in.

Hello There!

It has been a long time since I have written anything. I have felt like there was things I wanted to share, times I just wanted to write, times I needed to blog - but then there was that feeling of self-doubt or the realization of just how much time it takes to have a successful blog. I have been back and forth on the whole blog thing. I love having a blog but it does get to be quite the commitment. I also think I hold myself to ridiculous standards, that each of my posts need to draw a certain amount of comments. Or I start to think that my words are unimportant and why would anyone read my blog.

I need to remind myself that my blog is MY blog. It is for me. I love the community, but in the long run, it is a hobby and something I should enjoy. So, I am going to be back. I might not post daily, but I want to be back. I also think I might do some more random posting instead of just focusing on books. My blog name "A Flurry of Ponderings" was created to open up to the act that I could write about my ponderings and, as much as they are about books, there is a lot more going on in my head.

I miss the community most of all. I have met some AMAZING people through my blog and I definitely don't want to lose those connections! I did get to hear from them less and less as I pulled back, and really, that was entirely my fault.

Here's a bit of an update on my life since the last time I posted, if you have been wondering.

I am now 29 weeks pregnant. We are having a little boy and he is growing right on schedule. Pregnancy has been good to me. The first trimester was a little rough, but it has been going well since 13 weeks. I am due June 9th. It will be nice to have part of the summer off, I am looking forward to reading on the deck when the little guy is sleeping (if I am not napping as well).

I have kept up with Bible Journaling too. It has been as often because, honestly, sometime at night I am so tired I just want to veg out and watch TV. It has been fun and Illustrated Faith has partnered with DaySpring to create some amazing boxes with stamps and other sweet supplies!

Other than that, I have been binging a lot of TV. I have been a couch potato a lot since my energy levels have decreased. Here is what I have been watching - let me know what I should add to my list!

House of Cards
Fuller House
Walking Dead
How to Get Away with Murder
Second Chance
The 100
Modern Family

(and now I have realized I watch way too much TV lol!)