Review of Not if I See You First

The Rules:

Don’t deceive me. Ever. Especially using my blindness. Especially in public.

Don’t help me unless I ask. Otherwise you're just getting in my way or bothering me.

Don’t be weird. Seriously, other than having my eyes closed all the time, I’m just like you only smarter.

Parker Grant doesn’t need 20/20 vision to see right through you. That’s why she created the Rules: Don’t treat her any differently just because she’s blind, and never take advantage. There will be no second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart.

When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after being gone for years, Parker knows there’s only one way to react—shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind already, like trying out for the track team (that’s right, her eyes don’t work but her legs still do), doling out tough-love advice to her painfully naive classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn’t cried since her dad’s death three months ago. But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened—both with Scott, and her dad—the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem. Maybe, just maybe, some Rules are meant to be broken.

Combining a fiercely engaging voice with true heart, debut author Eric Lindstrom’s Not If I See You First illuminates those blind spots that we all have in life, whether visually impaired or not.

I received Not if I See You First from lovely Lori at Writing My Own Fairy Tale. I didn't know much about it, so honestly, it sat a really long time before I finally decided to read it. I should have picked it up a lot early, because I really enjoyed it and read it quickly!

  • I am not sure if I have really read any other books with a main character that was blind. It was so interesting to get inside Parker's head and "see" from her POV. I love books that give you insight into the lives of others and help us accept each other's differences.
  • Parker's story was TOUGH. I can't imagine going through everything she has and I am not sure I would have come out the same way she did. I think I would have a lot more anger and self-pity. Parker had a some fear, self-doubt and a walls around her, but it was realistic and it really helped me relate to her character.
  • Scott, swoon over Scott. I really don't want to ruin anything, but I have to add that in.
  • The friendship base in the book is awesome. It was honest, realistic and raw. I loved how strong it was and how well-written.
  • I was really impressed with Eric Lindstrom's writing. Not if I See You First was his debut novel and he started brilliantly. I was so impressed by how well he wrong a female voice.

  • I don't honestly know exactly why but the whole relationship with Sheila really bugged me. I felt like something was missing, I wanted more of a resolution with the whole thing.
  • I also would have really liked for Parker's aunt to come around and start understanding Parker better, I think it was in the fringes, but it felt like an important part for me.


  1. I've been super interested in this one, but not really having any feedback from peeps I trust meant I haven't bought it yet. But most excellent, I will definitely be checking it out now.

  2. I really enjoyed this book. I agree. It was an amazing start and his writing was fantastic.

  3. So fangirling over this review. I read this last year and it made my top book of the year. It's also impressive since I read this book on December of 2015 and it made it on there! I thought you made valid statements and I absolutely loved being inside the snarky and sarcastic personality that made Parker up. The romance was also so cute and for a debut novel (I think...), he is just such a fantastic writer. He's able to craft this story around a disabled character and make it feel like she's the most important figure in the world. SO STRONG!

    Alex @ The Book's Buzz

  4. Huh, I don't think I've ever read a story where the character was blind!

  5. I'm excited for this book! My library needs to pick up a copy ASAP

  6. I've never read a book that involves a blind character. I'm honestly curious at how it's written. Glad to know that you enjoyed this. I'd love to read it! Great review, Missie!

    czai @ the Blacksheep Project


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