Random Thoughts - Wanna Be Writer



I want to write but I always feel like my ideas are not good enough or someone else has already written them. I try to journal and then feel stupid writing about myself and my mostly boring life. I have some real world experience, I know some interesting people, I have ideas and then I just can’t get them to come out on paper. I can envision myself writing. I can see my hands on the keyboard, feel the clicks as I press on each letter, but I cannot figure out how to get a whole, complete interesting story out. Even writing prompts make me nervous. I judge myself. I feel like there is no way I can go up against the greats – and I am not sure how I would handle rejection and having to try and try. I mean, even the amazing Harry Potter had trouble getting published. I guess I just have to decide if this is my dream, my real passion and something I want to do, or just one of those crazy aspirations that I seem to always start and then finish.

How do writers get past the self-doubt, how do they come up with original ideas. Meh. I feel so stuck in life, I need something exciting. I keep feeling like there is just something gnawing at my being, but I have no idea what it is. I have this desire to write, like all the time, but then I sit down at the computer or with my notebook and find that Pinterest is more exciting or my hand goes numb from the writing within the first few sentences.

I want to write about real adult relationships, but I don’t feel like I am an adult yet and don’t know how to write for that market. I want to write about post-apocalypse scenarios but I feel like the market is flooded with them. How do I figure out a real, new and interesting story?
What about a fairy-tale retelling? That sounds awesome, but I am still stuck on how to do that. 

Actually, that kinda gets me excited right now. Maybe I will have to brainstorm that. What fairy tale should I pick? Maybe just randomly writing ridiculous blog / journal posts will get my juices flowing! I always am a little apprehensive about posting my own writing on my blog than some easy reviews. It is much easier to review someone else’s work rather than have your own judged.
So, there is my ramblings. Tell me your ramblings – do you want to be a writer, do you consider yourself a writer? How do you find inspiration?



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15 comments

  1. I have thought of writing as a future career for myself but I feel like I'm not strong at it when I'm under pressure. I'm not a planner so that is quite a big problem and I find that sometimes there are loads of wholes in my stories. Instead of being a fiction writer I have thought about being a journalist as I am not an extremely creative person but I like to state my opinions and write about what I like.
    Naomi @The Perks Of Being A Bookworm

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  2. I'm really insecure about my writing too. I've never written a whole book. But, I think the times when I write best are the ones where I forget about the whole "I have to finish a novel thing" or I HAVE to do this by a certain date, while at the same time still trying to work on it regularly. Don't treat it like an assignment! I can totally identify with what you're saying. Good luck on the new brainstorming project!

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  3. Your description is so spot on and exactly how I feel. I love to write, yet when I've started something I decide halfway through that it's complete rubbish, not original etc. and delete it. The most important thing I've learned from NaNoWriMo is to just start writing once you've got a basic structure and NOT delete anything in the process. Editing should commence once your story is done. Also, if you feel uninspired for a while (even a couple of months) just let your project sit there for a while. Inspiration might come in a random moment and it would be a shame if you'd deleted your story by then! Best of luck with the writing, I would totally read a fairy tale retelling since I'm a sucker for those ;)

    Sifra @ Brilliant Bookshelf

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  4. i say go for it. I think you'd make a great writer and when I usually write, it's usually when I have a strong feeling inside of me that I can't seem to contain other than on paper. Like for example, when I'm really really made about somebody I write a quick story about what it would be like if they disappeared (even though that sounds kind of sinister, it works and acts as a great writing prompt or basically warmup). I wish you all the best in the writing career and we'd love to hear some of your future works :D :D

    Alex @ The Book's Buzz

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  5. I'm not a writer. I've thought about it. Had a few ideas pop into my head. But it's never been something I've actively decided to plan out. So I just write them down for the just in case. So I can't really offer any words of wisdom there. But what I can say is that we are our own biggest critics. Most things I do I think are crap. Say even just with reviewing a book on the blog. I always judge it. I look at other peoples reviews and think, "God, there points come across so much clearer." It's unfortunately the way 99% of us are programmed to think. So what you have to do is just write. If you want to put an idea into being than just do it. Don't judge it. Just write and write and write. The only way to get better at something is by practice. So write a paragraph. Write a short story. Write a longer story. Just keep writing and try and hold back your self doubt. I know it's there. But the think to do is ignore it. Tell it to back off. If writing is something you want to do than don't pay attention to any other stories and books out there, just write yours and go from there.
    Happy reading!
    Brittany @ This is the Story of My(Reading) Life

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  6. I'm a writer (unpublished) planning on publishing very soon. I've written four books and I'm currently getting my MA in Creative Writing. But let me tell you from experience. Writing is HARD! It's not easy, especially when you first deal with self doubt. What you do have to realize is all the stories you read and that are published are stories that have gone through copious amounts of revisions. I'm talking 10-20+. It's hard work, but what those authors did was keep at it even if they wrote crap.

    This would be my advise: when you sit down at your computer or journal or whatever, you promise yourself that you won't delete anything that comes out onto paper. It may be crappy, or it may help you later on down the road. The cool thing with Brainstorms is that you don't have to use absolutely everything you write down, and same goes for writing a story. What you need to focus on first is FINISHING the book, no matter how bad you may think it is.

    "As a writer, I have to remind myself often: It doesn't need to be written perfectly. It just needs to be written." -Spectra Speaks

    Also, and I don't mean this as a spam at all, okay? because I generally hate doing this, but I have a new Tips & Tricks meme on my blog. It's a meme that I post biweekly that has tips and tricks on writing, so I'm starting from the beginning of the writing process and hopefully making it to the end. I don't know if it would help you, but I thought I would throw it out there just in case.

    Amanda @ Of Spectacles and Books

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    1. I will definitely check that out! Thank you!
      Missie @ A Flurry of Ponderings

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  7. I was once told by a ya author... write what you love or write what you know. The rest doesn't matter. So don't worry about what's on the market. Write it. If it sounds good to you than its your hard work.

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  8. I'm no writer but I do like writing, and I think it's a good mindset to have, because then you're writing for yourself and not for readers or a market. Blogs are cool like that. You can write, but people can also see. There's a big market for everything. There are so many people out there, and so many of them are bound to have similar ideas. My tip for writing fiction is to write down your fantasies, write down something you wish would happen in real life. If it's a relationship you're developing, don't feel stupid, just write a relationship the way you wish it would happen. Write something you'd want to read.

    -M
    The Life of Little Me

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  9. I nominate you for the Liebster Award over on my blog, so please head over there and find out more! :) ~KayCee K.

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    1. Sorry, forgot the link!
      http://wonderstruck-kcks.blogspot.com/2015/02/liebster-award.html

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  10. If you are really serious about writing, you need to be reading Chuck Wendig's blog (if you don't already). He will give you a kick in the ass to get you writing on a regular basis.The bottom line is, if you don't write, you won't get better. Just thinking about writing and having ideas is not being a writer. Chuck has weekly flash fiction exercises where he gives you a topic and you write about 1000 words, post it to your blog, then put a link in the comments on his post, so other writers can read your fiction. That might be something fun to do, just to see what happens!

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  11. Oh my goodness I COMPLETELY understand how you feel. My dream is to write a book. I too feel a bit stuck, and like I'm on the edge of something in life. I totally get where you're coming from. My problem is I have no solid story ideas. I'm planning on doing the A-Z blog challenge in April and was trying to think of ways to get some creative writing in there. Prompts that start with A-Z, or something. Still working out ideas! But I totally understand what you mean :)

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  12. Easier said that done, believe me, I KNOW, but the key to writing well is practicing writing. I know it's hard to find time, to develop these neat little ideas you have into full-fledged stories, to doubt your ideas, or to believe you can do it, but I also know the more I write the better I get. Doesn't mean I don't have doubts, because I do, but I think practicing is very helpful. Going to conferences, meeting other writers, and sharing my writing has also helped me. Hope that helps some!

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  13. I completely understand how you feel - I also often feel insecure about my writing, especially when I'm reading something which is SO good that I go, "Why do I even bother?" But you really have to try not to compare yourself to others. No matter what you write, there will always be people who like what you have to say. Also practice makes perfect. A first draft is usually crap. Try not to get knocked down by it and just keep editing until it shines.

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